My car has been handling itself with very little dignity the past few months. Several times when I insert the key into the ignition and turn, the motor turns as well, but doesn't catch. Exasperated, I stop trying to start it and stare at the red security light flashing on my dashboard. This continues to flash for a solid 10 minutes while I sit in the car. Depending on which location I will be ten minutes late to, I find myself fighting back either frustration, tears, anger, or annoyance. Sometimes I do feel relief for having a valid excuse to relax for a bit in the midst of a tight schedule. Most of the time, I'm reworking in my head the day's schedule and finding out more and more how much I plan so close to the minute. Probably not the best habit..
This morning, I was getting into my car and asking the Lord to start it for me...I didn't want to be late to work. It started, I breathed a thank You and began to back-up as a thought came to me. It may sound slightly silly, but I thought, "My car is so unfaithful to me. I never know if it is going to start or not and I can't trust it." As I thought about it for a bit more, I realized that this may be one way that God looks at my faithfulness to Him. If I'm not steady and faithful all the time, how is He supposed to know when I'm "going to work" or not. How is He supposed to know that I will respond to a movement or a whisper from Him when I've only responded sometimes in the past? I have to be ready to go all the time so when He does decide it's time to go, I'm waiting and prepared.
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